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Insidious_Dreams
29 November 2008 @ 05:56 pm
       Again and again, I found myself wondering of endless "what if " scenarios. Today, I am planning to spend some time going out.  But then, a troublesome girl is trying to remind me of something. Sad to say, I am not the the type of guy who sucks at history because of my own inability to remember time and dates. 

       I woke up again at four in the afternoon, after a night's bout in booze. I am starting to think that slowly but surely, I am becoming dependent on beers and spirits for a forty winks. Since I have no idea what the heck are we supposed to celebrate that midnight, I decided to go out today, to visit some good old friends and to have fun for myself. But instead I found myself watching some animes and some romantic movies with her, cooking breakfast and in an another bout of drinking till nine in the morning.
 
      I really would not know that our 3 years and 7th month anniversary until I heard a familiar tone on her cellphone and have a peek on it.
I almost laugh at my own blunders. For three years and seven months, she have stuck herself into me. Always complaining, always demanding and always there for me. With having her around, I felt that I am the evil antagonist in the story of my life and she is and will always be the invincible heroine that I will gladly submit to... She had won me over and over again by not going against me but being with me throughout the ups and downs of my journey... Eventhough my mouth are shut about talking about my own insecurities fears hopes and anguish, I found myself willing to talk it till morning with her and even for I moment I can feel that I am also an invincible hero for a night..... To you; Kwok Xiaohan, Happy three years and seventh month anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
 
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Insidious_Dreams
29 April 2007 @ 11:03 pm
    It's been a while since I've posted my own crumblings.... Thanks to someone's invasion of a private space.... Lets just say that it is a price that we have to pay for intimacy.... And to that special person; I just want to say that thanks for bearing with my bipolar mood swings, for being there (especially when I am suffering from my hang-overs and killer migraines...), for the patience, for making me smile, for making cofee, for those out of towns in wrong timings, for the aircon, for your own weirdness that makes you unique, your unrational jealousy (usually amuses me rather than annoys me), for the illegal detentions that you have been giving me recently and most of all, for being the girl for me..... Happy 3rd Anniversary!!!!
 
 
Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
Insidious_Dreams
14 April 2007 @ 01:37 pm
This are some of my favorite quotes that I've heard.... This maybe true to some... Or a lie to some... But I find it more realistic than of those candy coated hypocritical infatuation mushies from those overgrown, stupifying movies......

         Marriage is a contract..... Love is non-negotiable.... Love and relationship are two  entirely different concept.

        Love can struck as fast as a lightning... But love dies with  excruciatingly slowness... You may decide at this very moment that you are no longer in love and your brain might understand perfectly but the rest of you will take time to grasp this radical concept. The heart and stomach are particularly slow to learn.

      And when you are sure that the affair is over,and still feel a stabbing pain when you hear someone mention his/her name. You may have excorsied him/her from your life, but can barely keep mum when you feel a sudden punch in the gut when you accidentally meet him/her....

        Another annoying fact of life is; when you look fabulously gorgeous, you never meet someone who can make your pulse rate to break the sound barrier. But when you look like a troglodyte,, you meet someone that will take your breath away. Reality and chances conspire to deliver you to your beloved in a different light...

      Passion is non-quantifiable, which makes it more annoying. You can not measure how much you really love another person; love is beyond all the priciples of accounting. Neither can you demand that people love you as much sa you love them... You can not compare what cannot be quantified...

     

     Although it involves two people, love is an intensely personal experience. It is impossible to communicate to the loved one how exactly you feel; the loved one cannot comprehend it, not being you. Likewise, it is impossible to to make other people understand how you fell, because they are not you.

The secret of a succesful relationship is to assume that it will end badly... So neither of you will be surprised when your relationship hurtles to its inevitable end...